If you follow me on twitter (and if you don’t, what the hellz are you waiting for) you may have caught my announcement the other day that I made an appointment with a nutritionist.
I wasn’t sure if I was going to talk about my weight gain goals and seeking the help of a nutritionist on the blog now that i’ve “come out” publicly but..whatever. I’m sure anyone who knows me or has seem me probably thinks I could gain some weight anyway so, I’m doing it guys!
I’ve been trying to gain weight on my own for the past few months and aside from a few minor increases, I haven’t been making any significant strides at all. I just feel like my mind has become way too consumed with questions I don’t feel like answering:
How much should I eat?
What should I eat?
Should I work out?
How often should I work out?
Essentially, I’ve just started to feel like I’ve been doing way too much thinking and not enough living. After months of frustration and going no where, I decided it was time to surrender control and let someone else do the thinking for me.
I’ve met with a nutritionist before and while she helped me to gain weight, we just didn’t *click*. In fact, in many ways I think she may have prompted me to become even more unhealthy (mentally) than I was prior to seeing her. I know my parents and Gingie agree.
I have a meeting with the new nutritionist today and while a part of me is petrified and anxious, an even larger part of me is excited and ready to just do the damn thing (I like that part of me better). I’m not sure what to expect, as I know everyone’s methods and techniques are different, but I think the most important thing I need right now is change and guidance – both of which I’m sure she’ll supply.
Rather than approaching this new stage in my life passively, I’ve decided to compile a list of goals that I have for myself and plan on discussing with her.
Goals:
- Stop counting and measuring.
- Learn to eat more socially and spontaneously.
- Honor my body and [work towards] intuitive eating. I’m sure initially there will be some rules that I need to follow but my ultimate goal in all of this is learning how to live free of meal plans or regimented guidelines.
- Just do what she says. I’m always stubborn when it comes to playing by someone else’s rules, but right now I just need to bite the bullet and do what she tells me to. Let’s just hope she doesn’t have anything against me eating peanut butter. If that’s the case, I may have to take my business elsewhere. (partially joking).
I also emailed her with a link to my blog so she can get a better idea of the kinds of food I eat now and who I am (I’m surprised she didn’t call and cancel my appointment). I also think that it will really help to keep me accountable. Considering this is a food blog where I post, ya know, what I eat, I can’t exactly get away with not eating what’s on my meal plan if I know that my nutritionist is going to be looking at it.
Ooph, pressure. Scary, but necessary.
Alright loves, if you’ll pardon me, I have life changes to be made and strength to pursue. Wish me luck!
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What’s the last healthy decision you made for yourself? (mentally, physically, emotionally…)
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